Unlike few years ago, I havent been blogging quite honestly here. Neither did I post something so deep that it depicts what is really going on in my life nor giving hints that my life is at its worst, in this blog of mine. True enough, life is unpredictable. Sometimes it hits you brick-hard, shattered your staunchest strength, sometimes it's like the cozy wind that soothes you.
I, like many other people, cry when life is testing my strength. But throughout these few months back, I developed a habit to ignore the wreckage that is haunting me, or in other words, I put aside any hard feelings or sadness. I put aside to become immune and I am immune.
Malangnya, watak teater Bukan Salahku memerlukan aku utk meraung menangis sedih meratapi pemergian kawan baiknya. Im so freaking stuck with that scene.
I. Can. Not. Shed. A. Single. Teardrop.
...and I kid you not.
I had phase in life whereby something happened and even the smallest thing can make me weep, but these days? God. Tears, where you go.... I need you. Yesterday was epic when I tried to rehearse that epic grief-stricken scene. Meraung je ada, air mata takda. What the?? Hahahaha.
POST YG PANJANG OK.
(hm lama tak tulis mcm ni. lama sgt hew hew hew)
ps : tiada travel info yg terlalu byk dlm ni. sikit" tu ada kot. ini bukan travel post. ini post 3am yg malas.
It was really a great experience for me sebab aku tak pernah travel ramai-ramai dgn member. So memang meriah dan seronok sangat-sangat! Rindu lah jugak pergi trip tu. Tapi Beijing bukan tempat yang aku nak datang balik. Tak mcm Korea. Entah lah. Aku rasa sebab makanan dia tak best, lepastu dia takda wow factor sangat kot. Korea tu boleh nampak la canggih dia lebih sikit dari Malaysia. Maybe tu yg menarik. Beijing ni aku rasa mcm just nice lah. Alhamdulillah dapat pergi time winter. Walaupun tak merasa snowfall, aku tetap happy dapat rasa sejuk tu.
Biasanya sejuk yg tak boleh handle tu time pagi bila dah start touring. Contoh mcm dkt Summer Palace. Time dkt SP ni mmg aku jujur cakap, sejuk nak mamposssss. Pastu baru aku tahu time tu it was around -3dc. Haaa negative kau!
Aku tak tau nak blog apa. Dah jarang sangat blog. Selalu duk layan termenung je sampai tak terblog dah. Sampai lupa aku ada blog rupanya and once active here, long time ago lah... haha!
aku rasa umur 23 tu mmg betul2 raw nak masuk adulthood.
Dgn degree yg nak bakal habis mid July ni, aku akan masuk alam pekerjaan dan struggle menjadi hamba sistem. Gitu.
Hello kerja pun belum tentu dapat terus. Semoga rezeki aku tak putus lepasni.
Last year, turning 22 taught me :
1. to always double check stuffs.
2. to never trust that someone is reliable enough to handle things for you hahahaha
3. remember that things are constantly changing, so dont get fixated so easily
4. believe in the power of doa and staying true to yr effort
5. give a few seconds for yrself to pause then react to a problem
Being 22 last year was the best.
I went to Beijing, Istanbul, Bursa, Mekkah and Madinah all in one year.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Pictures taken using Lenovo A516 and Samsung S2.
We went to check on Kolej Tun Mutahir after we knew that the registration was postponed to Aug 6. It's a 10-storey apartment, 5-10mins walk to the campus. The apartment was empty because they are installing the new facilities at this moment. The condition wasn't really clean, I was quite intimidated and I hope they'll clean it up (ko pikir ko princess ke nisa??)
Just a little tour before this becomes my second home.