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Those who silently still care.

I read a post on FB saying that there will always be  one person who will really secretly care about you, then I shared the post and said "thank you if you are still there"

Idk to whom did I dedicate that post to.

But if there is a person, someone or a bunch of people who care about me silently, not letting me know, I just wanna say thank you so much..

I may not know y'all but Allah is watching your sweet gesture from above. I hope He will bless y'all with abundance of joy and ease in the world and hereafter.

Plus, to whoever that still check this blog just to know what am I up to (in a good way lah, duh), may Allah bless y'all too for your concern though not constantly, I cant repay it, but I hope Allah will.

I may overlooked these people, but I hope Allah wont.

Aku punya.

Just now Ayah told me when I was 3, we visited his friend then I decided that I like a toy of his friend's daughter's. Then I decided that I want it and I clutched to it despite being told to let it go cz it wasnt mine.

Then my parents had to dragged me out of the house and apologized to their friend hahahaha but still, I didnt let go of the toy that that Uncle gave it to me eventually and his daughter was looking at me behind the curtain. Hahaha! poor girl..

Today I realized it. Whatever that I decided to be mine is mine. I dont share it and I dont care that I wont share it. Hahahah!

I wish I am still THAT resilient towards what I want. Maybe I am, but on matters that dont matter.


Senyap.

Being bising and cheerful is hard.

It's hard cz just when you need your me-time to sit at a corner silently and think about stuffs, people thought something is wrong with you and you're not okay.

I mean, it is mostly true tho, but sometimes I just dont feel like being cheerful and I wish people know that I myself, freaking know how to get tired of being lively and cheerful, so yeah, I do know how and when to be quiet and stay calm. Haha!

But at time when I do have things to think, I just keep mum. I dont say much and I found inner peace by doing so.

Nevertheless, it's still hard.
I do have things in my mind right now, worrying about future and whatnot, I just hope Allah protect me always from things that He dislike.

Future Scares Me.

Aku amek space sikit utk lari dari Twitter sbb pagi tadi baru aku selesai delete semua tweet dan kosong kan Twitter, utk memberi laluan kpd masa lapang dgn menyiapkan thesis yg masih lagi tak siap2.

Mcm yg aku aim dlm calendar gmail, habis intern, settle chapter 4. Tapi tu lah, chapter 4 ni data analysis drpd questionnaire yg aku akan distribute. Masalahnya skrg ni Sir tak reply lg email aku. Nk dkt seminggu dah woi.

Bengkel SPSS (sejenis software utk key in data) pulak sabtu depan. Aku nak key in apabenda entah dkt bengkel tu nanti kalau sir tak reply email aku dan approve questionnaire aku. Adoi.

Smlm aku tweet "future scares me", ada 6 orang RT. Aku rasa disayangi sbb rupanya ada jugak kawan2 yg fikir benda sama.

Nak tidur, nangis. Bangun tidur, nangis.
Risau punya pasal.

Thesis
Viva
Habis bachelor degree
Kerja (ini paling menakutkan)