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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- Sejujurnya, aku rasa semester ni aku tak consistent. Hahahaha. Ikut mood rajin, aku rajin. Mood biasa, aku biasa je. Mood malas, mmg aku bantai buat benda lain. Byk faktor sebenarnya. Bosan dgn rutin sama etc. Alasan sungguh. Aku tgh study week skrg and aku rasa mcm aku tak study apa walaupun aku study. Aku rasa mcm aku buat latihan etc, mcm tak melekat. IDK why. This is intimidating. Aku dh buat jadual belajar, tapi aku rasa mcm jadual ni tk membantu. Aku tak tahu dah nk buat apa lagi ni. Aku tk pasti nak kena study mcm mana.  Risau jugak kalau dlm dewan nanti aku telan air liur garu kepala je masa nk jwb. Tapi berdasarkan pengalaman study week aku yg dh berapa hari berjalan ni, pointer mcm makin drop je. Gila. Serious doh, apa aku nak buat ni? Nak study mana satu dulu? Aku tak tahu kenapa aku mcm tk tahu nk buat apa ni. Hari...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ----------------------------------------------------- Harini hari ke 5 study week. Astaghfirullah apa kau buat dkt rumah haa nesaaaaa? HAHAHA! Sebenarnya kepala aku belum dkt exam lagi ni -___- maybe sebab tu bila aku study, lepastu aku rasa mcm aku tak study. Kepala aku (focus aku) dkt mana? Merata-rata. Kejap internet, kejap tidur, kejap internet, kejap TV.  HUAHUAHUA :P Harini aku bangun pagi, Adam call. Wey I tell you haa, that's the best feeling evahhhhh!! When you woke up and talk to him walaupun kami berdua mamai tutup mata hahahaha! Susah aku nk curi masa dia ni tau. Kalah YB yg tgh bertanding skrg ni -____-" Anyway, aku turun bwh nak breakfast and aku nmpk mak resting dkt sofa. Suddenly she said,  "Ayah masuk hospital pukul 3 pagi tadi" I was like.. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?? No lah, aku tk gelabah. Cuma rasa mcm she was joking.  Takda yg serious pu...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- Dah 4 hari study week mula. Aku rasa aku mcm tak study apa walaupun aku study. Rasa mcm hmm masuk ke apa aku baca ni, kalau soalan susah lagi mcm mana nk jwb, mana lagi nk kena baca ni, arghhhh internet ni kacau lah, hmm mata ni ngantuk, tidur sat lah.. PUIIIIII -_____- Study schedule. Aku rasa itu penyelamat. Dah 4 hari. Tinggal rabu, khamis, jumaat, weekend. 5 hari lagi. GILA. HAHAHAHA!! Tips? Bertenang, just do whatever yg termampu. Paksa sgt otak ni pun tk guna. Self-pity mmg buang jauh ah skrg ni patutnya. Aku dh puas study drpd 11am td, skrg dh nk pukul 6pm. GILA. Rasa mcm satu apa pun tk masuk. Mungkin sbb ada internet. Salah kau jugak gatai tangan kenapa. Takpa, relax. Kau gelabah pun tk settle masalah. Malam ni nak lukis schedule. Yes, lukis. HAHAHA! Esok kena lagi disiplin dan bijak guna masa. Jangan kayu sgt pl...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------------- Well, I am not gonna write about our story (Adam and I) all over again, from A to Z. That would bore people to sleep. It's just this morning when I woke up (feeling better than yesterday), I signed in to my blog and randomly go through comments in my blog. Surprisingly (his scornful remark these days, HEH), most of the comments were from him :)  and as I go through the comments, I looked at the variety of posts under "From Mr Bf" label and found a post he secretly posted. A post he wrote for me when I was about to sit for my first examination in matriculation :) Life at KMS has connect us both, actually. We started this relationship from a comment he left here on January 23, 2012 and we started to send email frequently. He asked for my number but I just ignored HAHA he gave his but what he didn't know i...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ----------------------------------------------------- Life has been super busy these days. With night classes all packed to my schedule, works to submit, I manage to be sane. Officially, study week has started and here I am, escaped myself from the bars of KMS (they forbidden us to go home during study week, fyi). Sucks, no? Sigh. Im homeeee! To tell you the truth, I am all freaked out about PSPM 2 (final exam). Preparation? 30 percents maybe. Sucks.  Im not sure whether it's wrong to complain about the amount of night classes they held. You see, we have classes from 8am-4pm, nthen 8pm something until 11pm (maximum). Yes I realized that it is for our own good. But man, aren't these people born with mercy? Yes I realized that they too are tired and stuff. But come on, I only see students whining over things and some even lost their interest (I almost be the latter one). But whate...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------------- Minggu Gila. Aku rasa minggu ni cukup gila. Gila penuh air mata, penuh drama, penuh umpatan, penuh dosa. Muahaha. Selama aku sekolah dkt SSAAS, jujurnya, aku jarang ada masalah member. Mungkin sebab aku bukan jenis nk touching lebih bila member tinggalkan aku, pegi lepak tk ajak, pastu emo tak bertegur bagai. Tenang bro, aku manusia, masih punya rasa. Memang terasa hati, tapi kita chillex ah kan. Yang bersalah tu pun, bagusnya tk play dumb act innocent. So ada justice sikit and tkda la gaduh bagai. Aku rasa dulu masa sekolah rendah ah issue gaduh bagai ni hebat dilakonlayarkan -___-" most of my friends dkt SSAAS, jenis yg reti mengalah. Aku boleh buat konklusi yg dorang ni simple-minded and telus. Kau salah, kau admit, kau malu, kau jgn  ulang lagi. Settle. Fakta sekarang ni, semua orang pun buat salah. So, bila tak mengaku salah ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------------- Oh Ya Allah, I ask forgiveness from You for the things I did and continue to do, intentionally or unintentionally. I pray that I'll find my way out. I pray that my problems will resolve. I pray that I found my inner peace. I pray that I have enough rezeki and  be content with whatever You have prescribed for me. I pray for strength to stay motivated. I pray for strength when nobody is my listener. I pray for strength when my result ain't astonishing as others. I pray for strength to care not whether I get my beauty sleep. I pray for a companion that will guide me through. I pray for productivity, even if it is tiny ones. I pray for strength to face PSPM2. I pray for a way out. Dear Allah, I have nobody to listen to me, actually. It hurts when nobody listens, when my little things are annoyances ...

I haven't been blogging lately. Surely I don't know what have gotten into me. Study has been a drab. If you asked me to sit for final exam now, I would have been kicked out from the college right after the result is published. Sigh.. Kinda have to admit that when the final exam is near, I am freaking out. I just gotta do lots of things. To revise, to read, to memorise. Goshhh, I have forgotten my first chapter of chemistry for this sem. Such a short term memory.. I've seen my girls in class are striving hard. Fyi, my class are listed among the best class for PDT. We have 4 people with astonishing result. They got 4 flats, you know.. BIG SHAME ON ME. Well, I don't study hard enough hahahaha obviously. Now I feel like collapsing. Final is on April 22. I have another one month to err.. struggle, they say. I can foresee myself crying while studying hahahaha. I seriously am in minor depression actually. You see, there are times in class that I would tear a bit thinking o...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------------------------- I seriously need to make this year as a year of change. Accept changes, create changes. Good ones, ofcourse. Well, you can't stay relax, yknow.. Few of the changes have been listed. This should be fun :) just little ones should be okay, at least I have something to do :) But that isn't the reason why I write this post. Last night, idk what sorcery casted on Zauji that he suddenly asked me to go salam my parents before I go to bed and if possible hug them both. Wanna know my reaction? That freaking give me heart attack and there I was, roaming in my room like a total bimbo, thinking of how should I do it -salam my parents. First, I wasn't nurtured to do such thing. It's weird for me. We don't even hug each other in this family. It's not the ambient. You know, you've met this kind of family, rig...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------- These days, I had a thing for clothes. Probably because I go to classes wearing the freaking SAME baju kurungs for every semester (so far).. The only days that I feel to wear a bit fancy (eh?), are during exam days. Yeah, exactly, because it marks the beginning of semester break and I'm hyperventilating. Hence, the fancy baju kurungs. Nevertheless, my baju kurungs aren't so fancy pun sebenarnya. It's just I'll be wearing the ones that I rarely don. My coursemates will all be like "ceh, cantik baju? pegi kuliah tk pakai pulak baju ni?" and I'll answer "excited nak balik weh.." HAHAHAHA! What a weird bimbo.. So yeah.. I think it is not so late for me to rant about my resolutions this year. (Gila kau? dah february dah oi!).. (Ada aku kesah? hewhewhew..).. So, this year are just gonna be a simple and happy y...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------------------- Bila aku fikir balik, lagi few months aku genap 19 tahun. Hello, rasa mcm baru semalam jadi 14. Mcm baru semalam lap hingus dkt lengan baju, bila balik Mak ngamuk. Rasa mcm baru semalam aku daftar masuk SSI. Cemburu sungguh masa pada aku. Semua benda berubah. MashaAllah.. Aku berubah tak? Better or worse? Worse, I think. Allah Maha Penyayang je yang jaga my behind the scenes sins.. I mean, semua org dijaga oleh Dia. I bet kalau Dia kejam, semua org pun malu dgn perangai sendiri sbb semua live showing dkt dahi. Tapi Dia cover baikkk punya kita punya aib. MashaAllah.. Tahun ni tahun terakhir umur aku start dgn digit "1". So sentimental. Bolehkah aku dilabel dewasa lepasni? Tak. Nak. Aku nak jadi kanak 2 ! Sigh. Ah, umur dah 19 pun kdg 2 perangai mcm kanak 2 HAHA! Aku rasa berperangai kanak 2 tak menunjukkan aku...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------------------- CRAZY! It's the 9th week of SEM 2 which remarks the soon-to-be-seated Midsem Exam (UPS). Yeah, next week on Tuesday the exam starts :) Time SERIOUSLY fleet like lightning!! Arghhhh, I SOOOO can not believe this hahahaha!! Another 9 weeks and SEM 2 ends -____-" mashaAllah, how I grew :')  Study has been kinda smooth for me except Physics which I am still figuring it out and I seriously have to improve with Maths -____-" Mak, Ayah and Adam will freaking nag to my ears for weeks if I flunk again hahahaha!! B should be okay I think :) insyaAllah, nesa.. I've been having neck-shoulder cramp (?) and headache these days. Stress maybe? HEH. I have 3 days to revise back what I have learnt, insyaAllah everything is going to be okay.. I just need to do A LOT better than last semester. I need to catch up my pointer, ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------------------- For every 9 weeks after midsem/semester break, matriculation students will be sitting for UPS/PSPM respectively. So yeah, I am currently in week 8. Just another week left before UPS starts. Time really fleet away like a lightning. I felt like it was just yesterday when I felt all gloomy after 2 weeks of semester 1 break.  Everything is going smooth for now except physics -____-" I don't quite fathom Simple Harmonic Motion, and I forgot how Rotational of A Rigid Body works hahahaha Alzheimer alert!! -____-" This week fleet so fast, you know!! I was overwhelmed with works that I forgot my 6th monthsary with Adam -____-" so much things happened and I just have to adapt. Adam has been so amazing since day 1 :') he has been there to shine bright my days like a diamond hahahahaha (aku tgh suka lagu tu, excuse me). ...

This week has been so.. err, what eh? Typical, maybe. No night classes, so I was beyond grateful -___-" UPS is within 18 days. Am I prepared? 40%. I am currently :  Trying to catch up with piles of works to be done. Lots and lots of tutorial questions to do and submit. Catching up with the Simple Harmonic Motion thingy which drives me insane!! Being consistent with my 2km jogging distance per day despite the hectic schedule. Try not to flunk in Mathematics anymore. Be as cool and calm as I can (simply because everyone else is freaking out about exam -___-" UPS je pun..). Try to make my parents happy with my quizzes marks.    Ah so much things actually.. Loved Ones. Like school days..  Where my 2km begin.. ....and I still can't believe that my desk is as neat as this for this week. Yay! Amoi nak pegi sekolah. cross eyes, aren't they? >_o Aku pun tak pasti HAHAHA Sekarang aku rasa aku perlu pengukuhan utk sub...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ------------------------------------------------------- DAY 1. I'm just gonna make this week's summary very brief. So much works to do. Let the pictures and captions speak. Easy to read though.. Last week, I made chest pawn. So this week,  I had to create the board and table also :D Seronok gila woi! Maghrib view. Solat at Masjid. New Year's Eve. Blogging. Okay, esok cuti. Baik aku tidur skrg. Esok terlampau byk benda nk buat.  Might wake up at 3am to do works. Good night. Happy New Year! BarakaAllah :)   DAY 2. It's the first day of 2013! Spent my day doing my works and I got maths lecture at night -___-" There goes my 'holiday'.. Oh and btw, only RM2 left in my purse. Yeah, to survive till Friday. 'Horah'. *update* Oh great, I have no money to eat, just used the RM2 for laundry. Nice one, Nesa..  First morning of...