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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- It's been so tiring these days. My schedule is so packed with classes and had to struggle a bit to find ways for extra brain blooming session and drilling. Final exam is exactly a month from now -______- I feel like slapping myself in disbelief. Is this real? Just another one month and six days, I wave good bye to semester 1. Time really flies.. With all the quizzes and extra classes at night, I'm feeling the pressure. At certain point, I keep mumble to myself "sabar.. sabar.. sabar.." because you see, I am working hard everyday trying not to whine or sigh or moan like a bimbo -_____-  Next week, I'm full with night classes, quizzes and pre-final exams. OH. MY. GOD. Life is awesome when I'm busy like this actually. It's just, I have to maintain the quality of what I'm doing. In other words, don't be reckless. ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- Perhaps driving to Subway to buy lunch for your lil brothers are typical cliche norm of yours. But apparently, it's not for me :) While my parents went out for a ride with their friends to Melaka, I had to babysit my lil brothers. HAHA. Babysit is not me and my lil bros a not so lil, so yeah.. they know how to behave. Oh I feel like a kakak when I had to drive here and there, buy foods for them and some stuffs before I head back to KMS in few hours time. Alone, is the best part. Well, ARY was there, virtually accompanying me :p  I enjoy this kind of lifestyle. The one I can move on my own without being restricted to a stringent schedule, or moments of abstaining the agony of waiting for others -_____- see the selfish part of me? :p mehhhhh, I don't really harm others. Hope so :p  Within hours I'll be going back to KMS. Ah yes, I...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------- Alhamdulillah for the chance that was bestowed for me today. I got the chance to meet some of my buddies. Went to Setia City Mall. Well, I can still feel the closed bonding between us. Nothing changed. They are still the some oafs I know during my school years in SSAAS. 4 years ago, when I first entered SSAAS, I hate almost everyone. They kept scrutinize me, they didn't smile back etc. They were snobbish people. At that time, I wasn't really focusing on my study. It's like my study is not priority. My study doesn't horrified me. Plus, at that time, I was from a cluster school in JB, my brain was not yet rotten, my study was okay. Until few months later, after I have settled in, my social network got better, I mixed up with people and became the hyper-est of them all -____- I was known as Nesa the kepoh, people can not handle me. I someti...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ------------------------------- Randomness 1 : Rasa liat gila nak pergi Jamuan Raya Kuliah D2M2. Seriously. Aku ni anti sosial ke apa seh? -___- Esok boleh balik dah, tapi aku tak boleh balik for the next 3 weeks, perhaps. Die due to boredom.. Nak study sentiasa pun tk leh gak weh, mental nanti. Weekend dkt sini tkda beza mcm dkt rumah. Cuma dkt rumah lagi better, Mak Ayah boleh bawak aku tgk dunia luar :p Aku tak suka pergi outing, duit transportation tu yang 'sakit' nak bayar -____- pantang sungguh.. Randomness 2 :  Apabenda ntah masalah aku, nak paranoid lebih, asyik down. Seriously, I am hard to comprehend. Even ARY can't comprehend me -____-"  Enough la nesa.. You are His Servant, bukan hamba kpd semangat kau yg senang jatuh tu. Kalau asyik nak ikut spirit kau tu, mmg ke laut la.. Randomness 3 :  Aku rindu Mak Ayah doh -____-" sighhhh.. homesick kali ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------------- I personally feel okay and quite relieved with my result. Well, not to say that I feel stable with it, but the positivity and confidence I gained from my UPS result will, insyaAllah, keep me going for the next 6 weeks. A beloved lecturer talked to me personally via phone just now. She has been my private motivator since I first know her. What she said was perseverance matters and manage my time wisely. I am still searching for the conflicts and solutions inside myself that resulted in my 'imbalance' result.  What is this crap? Ughhh.. I feel like going back home this weekend, try to make myself calm. I can not stay calm here in KMS, I get paranoid seeing these people with their spirit hahahaha.  Deep inside I am more satisfied than ever because I managed to get A for my chemistry because I wanted to make...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- It's been 3 months for me in KMS. How time flies.. Currently waiting for Peperiksaan Semester Program Matrikulasi (PSPM) or what they called as final examination la, obviously -____-" another 6 weeks left, study week deducted because I know I'll be sleeping all day long during that week -____-" bosan.. Ujian Pertengahan Semester (UPS) result will be announced in another 2 days, they said. Intimidated much? Nah, benda dah lepas. Buruk ke fail ke result aku, terima seadanya and move forward, jangan leka lagi. I can not repeat the same mistake meh. So, as the title says it all.. Yup phone aku masuk toilet bowl semalam. It was disaster HAHAHAHAHA. Worry not, my phone is in fine condition now. I can text and make phone calls. Alhamdulillah, that I was quick. Yup, aku ambil phone guna BARE HAND dlm toilet bowl tu. BOW...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------- I've been doing a lot of deep thinking session with myself that it finally leads me to an immense depression HAHAHA kids, don't be like me. Don't think too much, you'll ended up having wrinkles and pimples :p Final examination is within 7 weeks. I'll be sitting for it starting on October 29. Heyy, aku taknak ckp psl exam dkt sini, rosak suasana riang ria hari raya HAHA. Apa yang aku nak cakap is, aku tak tahu sapa yg setia baca blog aku yg tak seberapa ni. Aku tahu la tak semua dlm blog ni bagi manfaat dkt kau as reader. Aku tak expect pun org baca blog ni, tak berharap pun. But you know, to have readers is a bliss. Aku bersyukur. But.. I think for the next few weeks or months or PERHAPS years, I'd rather set this blog as private blog. Private di sini bermaksud, aku dan certain people je boleh baca. Why? ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------- June 23 . I went back home and celebrated my birthday with my family. It was pure bliss. You know, when you are 'far' apart from your family, even a second with them meant the whole world to you. I believe that is blessing from Allah. June 24. I had to go back to KMS for my duties there aren't done yet. Deep inside me, I was feeling numb. Each time Ayah drove back to KMS, I felt disheartened. I arrived safely at KMS and Ayah parked his car in front of my hostel block. It was a moment of definite reluctance -_____- I wanna go home. Time was envied and my parents had to go back to Shah Alam. I waved them goodbye and went upstairs to my room. Sad and blur. Roommates asked about how I celebrated my birthday. Yeah, it was awesome until I reach KMS's gate -____-" So I kept myself occupied with stuffs to be neatly arranged ...