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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  So, aku betul-betul mcm tgh cuti sem ni. Dont give shit about assignment, letak je atas desk tapi tak sentuh. Jujur beb. What I've been doing? Oh well, wake up, scroll FB, go downstairs for something to eat, youtube all day. Youtube makes me happy, it keeps me sane hahahaha. This semester we aren't "equipped" with study week. Yes, sucks. So it's crucial actually, but mehhh you gotta bertenang. As far as Im concerned, I have like 5 assignments that I need to settle down kot, malas recheck. Wow, shitloads of things, huh? Good luck, nisa! -__-" Time was averagely fast for me. It was a bit slow for a few days and procrastination is tiring actually. Hahahaha. Gila. I can imagine the amount of sleep hours I will get after this. Also, the eyebags. Oh have fun, nisa! -__-" goodbye calorie count.  I just found my mosssssst favourite snack which is Garrets macadamia caramel popcorn which is extraordinarily freakin supe...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  POST YG PANJANG. SILA PERGI KALAU TAK MINAT. Pertama sekali, ini bukan membuka pekung di dada tapi ini realiti yg semua org patut dah boleh terima dah. Tak semua gadis sekemas luaran nya, tak semua gadis ya. Jadi, jgn ingat yg muka cun, baju iron tajam, tudung kemas takdak herot berot, bilik kami-depa (aku serba salah, nak guna which one pun aku tak tau aihh) kemas sentiasa yaaa.  Kdg-kdg realiti tu harus dipaparkan supaya hati yg diluar sana tak bummed bila tahu realiti. Bummed tu mcm kecewa la. Aku sendiri pun bummed bila tgk diri sendiri dkt cermin. Well, kita tahu diri kita serabai takat mana, jadi jujur je lah dgn diri sendiri yaaa. Mmg tak improve diri ni in and out kalau tak be honest with yourself. before-after. boleh lahhhh. ada bezanya jugak. more space. Aku ada 25 benda nak kena update dkt diri sebelum layak jadi wife orang. Nyawa pun tak tau la sampai bila Allah nak bagi pinjam. Jadi, post ni adalah sebahagian usah...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  It has been quite a good week for me, alhamdulillah. Have started my lil efforts towards a better cgpa lol hahahaha apabenda ni. Idk where is the part I put my effort but I know this week is better than the previous ones. Baby steps, I suppose. I just can't wait for midsem break. I have high hope that midsem break would be fully utilized. How? Well, the planning part is always the fanciest -.-" So, I had to ditch planning but sticking to a motto which is "time has to be fully utilized". It's gonna be tough. Too much distractions at home. But before heading home, I will have to face 3 tests -.- Im gonna be dead. So, lets pray that everything goes smoothly for me okay? I need to get higher carry marks and a less worry during final exam. (you have no idea how cuak and stressful I was last semester due to the low carry marks for almost ALL of the subjects). It was torture. Alhamdulillah, I passed all papers. Mission accomplis...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Aku rasa bunga tu memang patut dinamakan morning glory sbb lets admit that morning has its own glory to some of us. I have always been a lover of morning skies and ambient. Kalau dekat rumah masa cuti sem (yg aku tk tido lmbt pastu bgn nk dkt zuhur), I would normally stayed up after subuh, open up the windows in my room and stare at the blank sky and listen to sound of birds chirping. Only then, hati aku jadi tenang. A good way to start my day. When I was in KMS, we had classes at 8am every single freakin day (which could be boring at times) but one of the things that I would always remember (other than the freaking delicious lontong at Orion) is how I always looooove spending my time sitting at any corner of Blok Mira while waiting for Yasmin and just stare at the stunning sky, listen to the sound of bird and just enjoy every second of it.  This thing buat aku sedar yg how terribly fast I tried to chase all the things ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Week 4 : It was another week wasted with procrastination, I guess. I haven't been productive yet. No one-page notes ever made so far. No past year questions that looked appealing to me. I went back and forth to class, balik merepeut main phone, overslept, watched movies, borak more and more. Wasted, I know. Went to Jln TAR on saturday (April 28), accompanied my housemate Syira to buy kain baju raya. Bought 2 shawls of striking colours (yellow and pink). Pehh, berapa lama aku tak beli shawls seh hahaha. Oh did I forgt to say that I had lunch with one of the most charming senior we have in UiTM KBM? Hahahaha. He won't read this, dont worry. Pffttt.  Did perform on stage for sketsa My Love From Dhaka during Malam Serangkai Mawar, an event under Kelab Warisan Budaya. I was being an amoi, probably a converted muslim amoi hahahaha. No script but we all did well despite the time constraint to practice. Ahh, the feeling of doing what...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  WARNING : BLOG POST NI PANJANG. TOLONGLAH EXIT. It's 3am and my class would be at 3-4pm esok, so Im in the mood of blogging and umm... particularly this topic right now hahaha. Oh please, at this age, I can talk about anything as long as Im still rational with it. Okay, proceed...  to me, a girl (me secara khususnya) should NOT talk/dream/plan about marriage unless if she is : able to cook able to iron baju fast and perfectly able to retain baju putih's colour able to ensure katil, locker, toilet, wardrobe, bwh katil all sentiasa bersih able to ensure that dapur all the time clean and flawless able to mingle with makcik2 aka org tua able to dukung baby and feed baby able to mengaji fluently dgn tartil beserta tajwid mastery able to make volunteer work to approach society soft at heart, firm and rigid on the outside able to give friendly tazkirah to lil kids able to explain basic essential things about islam usaha tak tinggal...

those eyes, were the highlight of my day. they were simply the reason my fudged up feeling got untangled really easily. i stared at those eyes and felt something gushing in. is this the upcoming pain? quit staring at mine. your conflicted gesture kills. you are unpredictable soul, indeed. i felt the pain gushing in, im keeping distant. but that smile though, keep pulling me back to that conflicted uncertain area. where it began

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Last week was so-so. Nothing much is interesting except for certain things. I had the chance to go back to Johor, the place I was born and raised for 13 years. Got to see how the city of Johor was decorated so beautifully for Sultan Johor's coronation. I feel proud strolling aroung the city, esp by having my family with me.  We went back to our former house. The house I used to live and spent my childhood at. Those days when life was simpler, when we aren't as lavish as now. Not that we are currently freakin lavish, but I do admit, life has been pampering me since we moved to Shah Alam back at the end of 2007. It somehow made me sad. How I have changed, how things changed. How money changed people, how life does hurt you by seeing things you just cant alter it anymore. I sat with my handsome (tak leh puji lebih, bahaya haha) senior for lunch last tuesday when he advised me and got me like ughhh where am I. I am so fudged up last semest...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  WARNING : POST YG SUPERRRRR PANJANG. BEAR WITH ME. Oh yes, Adam aku tak short-list kan sebab well... dia kan tak wujud, (if you read my previousss posts). So, ini je lah jejaka-jejaka yg pernah wujud dlm hati aku. (Tipu) HAHAHAHA. Ada la dulu masa aku form 2, aku minat nak mati dgn senior ni named F. Si F ni mmg tahu la aku minat dkt dia. Aku rasa time tu last aku minat gila dkt seorang lelaki. Ewah. Sbb F tu tak minat dkt aku balik (wtf statement ni hahaha), and dia suka senior lain yg super hot and dorg rapat. So aku back off. Perit siot.  Tu last lah aku minat dtk lelaki. I mean, I started everything. The first text etc.  Apesal aku tak fight utk win hati F? Boleh je tapi masalahnya akak tu hot gila, aku still aku, very the simple one, no fame, nothing. Plus, cukup dah kot aku yg started everything, if F taknak, aku dah patut back off dah hahaha. Sbb in this cliche society, bila girls yg bukak step, there's pandangan sinis. ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  I was lost in the field of love (with a real physical guy who actually exist hahaha) 5 times before this. Oh please dont judge, we all do stupid things when we were young. cewah. Just sharing things i have learnt : First guy. Things I learnt : - muda lagi, jgn bodoh sgt. 2nd guy. Things I learnt :  - moving on is a choice, it's do-able - i better start knowing my worth as a muslimah - if someone cares for you, care for them, dont keep them waiting - but dont do it, dont force yourself if you cant - speak up, nicely. - remember your limitation - even if he cheats on you, keep calm, slow talk - meeting up everyday could be boring and dull - dont fall in love too hard, it hurts when it has to end. 3rd guy. Things I learnt : - some things dont deserve your sacrifice - be true to yourself - texting 24/7 is unrealistic and tiring - dont give in to people who has no respect for y...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Kalau kau kenal aku dgn rapat, kau probably tahu yang aku quit/ditch/terminate byk benda these days. Mak kata "awak taknak bertanggungjawab". I can not argue with her because technically everything she said is right hahaha well, mak kita kan. Bagi lah dorang menang. Some of benda yang aku cancel/ditch ni is somehow could be a big part of hidup aku. Tapi aku quit. Firstly sebab komitmen. I can't seemed to give commitment. Which technically, like Mak said, taknak bertanggungjawab. Well, I said, aku malas mencuba these days. Belum papehal dah quit. Or perhaps I think too much or too far or too realistic. Idk. I think I went haywire these days without even realizing!! I thought I am totally fine but nooo. Perhaps I was intimidated to be occupied with other than my classes, assignments and studies, hence I quit to avoid the overload of stuffs to plan and accomplish within a semester. Oh this sucks big time. Eleh, I haven't been pro...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Haritu, aku takdak kelaih dah lepaih pukui 11am. Pi lepak sat dgn member. Pastu balik nun, hujan lebat. Aku duk sorang dkt ruang tamu ni, ada org ketuk pintu. Aku pi bukak. Ada la member ni baru balik.. Aku tanya, "eh, baru balik? gi mana?" Dia jawab, "kelas english, saya repeat. awak kena tolong saya, nisa" Tenung dia penat mengharung hujan dgn segala barang yg dia pgg tu, hati aku remuk doh. Last sem aku tgk cemana dia struggle utk english. Nota dia penuh translation. Bersalah pun ada gak. Aku pass dah, member ni tertinggal blkg. Demmm, pasaipa aku tk nmpk benda ni. Kadang 2 aku rasa I better off jadi cikgu english dkt sekolah rendah je, memang lah tak fancy, gaji takda la 5 angka, tapi puas. Puas dpt bg anak orang pandai bahasa penjajah ni hahahaha. "ah shit, so kita kena game la selama ni? shit" ------------------------- Thank you for reading! Have a nice day! ♥

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Kelajuan masa minggu ni agak melampau sikit pada aku. Sekejap je dah jumaat. Week 2 ni aku dh cipta rekod ponteng satu hari direct. Peh, aku ni mmg selamba bab ponteng. Kalau aku jd lecturer, aku nak kata dkt students aku "hangpa nak ponteng kelaih aku, buat la, aku takdak nak bebel. tapi hangpa tk capai target aku, tgk la aku suh hangpa cuci jamban nohh" hahahaha coolest lecturer ever. Aku pegi Aeon sorang, tgk Cinderella masa ponteng tu. Like a boss.  This is degree life. Total liberation. Very dangerous. Kalau lah anisah skrg adalah anisah yg 6 tahun dulu, mampus hanyut aku ni. Lagi pulak kalau (aaminn ya Allah) ada kereta sendiri. Peh, mmg weekend je dari JB smpai Penang aku touring. Dasar risk taker tak bertempat. Hahaha! Anyway, minggu ni dah mula brainstorm utk sketsa masa AKRAB 3.0 nanti. AKRAB ni apabenda pun aku tak leh nk habaq. It's like pengenalan kelab2 yg ada dkt kampus kpd students lah. Gitu katanya. Aku tolong bu...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Masa aku dekat matriks dulu, aku selalu buat entry dgn title camtu. sem 1 / week 9 yadayada. Lepastu bila dah hbs matriks, aku bukak balik dkt label Life in KMS, aku senyum sorang-ii. Laju masa berjalan, aku dah semester 2 for degree skrg ni. Walaupun last semester aku mcm tak pegi kelas je result examnya, tapi last semester aku happy dan belajar utk byk kan bersyukur, walaupun dgn kekurangan. Memang semester ni tugas aku adalah utk literally menghadirkan minda yg sedar ke kelas hahaha. Tengok lah mcm mana. Week 2 baru start belajar. Somehow aku bersyukur dgn segalanya yg aku sendiri tak boleh nak describe. Alhamdulillah. Week 1, aku byk mereput je pegi kelas, gelak-ii dgn lecturer pastu balik. Assignment? Seciput je baru. Tu pun aku terlupa hahaha. Tapi alhamdulillah, semuanya aku cuba okay-kan, walaupun pemalas ya robbi nak belajar. garang sikit hahahaha baju ke kuliah kononnya. colour tone sama je -.- konon make up lah...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  If I were to look forward, I am not very sure of what I should do with this piece of degree scroll in International Business. Perhaps I am not very well exposed with the career that I can grab other than starting a business (whats the point of taking a degree in biz anyway?). I do have few future plans in my doodle book and brain. Some of it went mental like ditching UiTM and go for degree in broadcasting at LimKokWing instead. But you see, the problem here is money. The biggest reason why I am still sane doing this degree in IB is because of the cheap fees (Well, we're among the cheapest though). Allah bless UiTM! Certainly, I am not a big fan of learning business. Well this is quite honest, isnt it? Hahaha. Semester 1 has ended and I realized that I am not a fan of what I am doing now. BUT all the syllabus is still bearable because I always have a settings in my mind that learning this field is more bearable than doing a degree in science fie...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Kalau tengok kan kalendar, aku ada 2 hari lagi sebelum balik kampus dan mula kan semester baru yg tiada study week. Perasaan? Oh semestinya miserable sbb memikirkan result sem lepas yang as expected ke laut tu dan betapa byk struggle aku kena lalui lepasni dgn rutin seorang pelajar dan sebagainya. Jauh lagi aku kena kejar stable cgpa ni. Perasaan aku mcm wayar yg berselirat belakang TV. Serious. Aku tak rasa nak start new sem dan aku jugak rasa nak start new sem. Hahahaha tak rasa nak start  sem baru sebab rutin tambahan yg aku kurang gemar. Rasa nak start sem baru sbb aku cuak memikirkan cgpa maka aku harus ke kelas dan tak tinggal ilmu. Ini lah perasaan setiap kali cuti sem habis. Perasaan ni mmg cm bangsax. Dreadful lah omputeh kata. Dgn cgpa yg aku ada skrg, mmg tak dapek lah join teater. Weekend sesungguhnya hanya utk asah minda. Tp aku dikerah utk rutin baru setiap pagi sabtu. Allahurabbi, Dia je tahu betapa terseksanya mental aku bu...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Temerloh signboard dkt blkg tu tinggal half je sbb yg half ke bawah tu rabak masa banjir haritu. Tinggi rupanya air banjir T_T ni dlm galeri dkt hotel, sempat lg wefie. I just realized that the last trip with my family was a trip to Cameron Highlands last year which I failed miserably to make a post about it hahaha. Also, I realized how much I am more prone to have pictures of my friends rather than my family, that depicts that I hang out more with my friends  hahaha. Ini lah dia jadi sorang puteri dlm family dan tak reti duduk diam. Keluar memanjang dgn kawan. Yes, my parents mmg the coolest when giving me the permission to hang out or travel with friends. I know I am fully blessed but mind you, they do nag. A lot. Hahaha. But they never abstain me from exploring the world. It is just me who (kadang-kadang) came home late. Lupa diri. Biasa lah hahaha. Went to Pahang for CNY. Just a very short sightseeing with my family wh...

Ini My Previous Love Story 1.0 (click the link) Baiklah, aku akan cuba sambung citer ni dgn sebaiknya supaya segala mindfuck dpt diuraikan. Maafkan aku kalau diakhir post ini, korang masih mindfuck dgn apa yg jadi. But yeah, selamat me-mindfuck-kan minda. Sini aku kasi satu das. Baca sampai muak,  biar faham, biar puas terjawab persoalan dlm kepala ekau tu. REAL WARNING : POST YG PANJANG. TAKNAK BACA SILA EXIT.  MERUNGUT WON'T SOLVE ANY SHIT. ----------------------------- Hi. Nama aku Nisa dan aku bercinta dengan seorang 'lelaki' bernama Adam Rafiuddin bin Yusuf yang tidak pernah aku jumpa. Adam adalah seorang pensyarah di sebuah IPTS. Aku bercinta dari dari July 2012 hingga July 2014. (Oh shit, aku baru sedar it's july to july). Ye, 2 tahun aku bercinta dgn 'mamat' ni (yang pada masa itu, masih lagi seorang mamat di mata dan pemahaman aku). Ye, dia adalah seorang lelaki yang tidak pernah sama sekali wujud dan aku baru tahu pada ...