A future with you.

to my future other half,

im sorry this has to be in English because i am really awkward to write in malay whe  it comes to curhat. ignore the grammar error.

to my future other half,

tonight i think of you. i kinda miss you. i hope one day i am given the chance to tell this to you. i miss you.

here's a thing about missing your future other half. girls are like this. perhaps we think too much. we think and worry about our future other half. i sincerely hope you are doing well, sweetie. 

i hope one day god gives me the chance to finally say it to you that i miss you and i love you. its been so long siince i last pronounced my love for a guy. i learn to keep it for you. i am no saint, no relic, no good example, i am just trying to find me, doing better me.

to my future other half,

my life here is challenging, i hope you send me prayers even though you know not my name cz i send prayers for you though your name is still god's gracious secret.

to my future other half,

i learn to me as close as i can to my parents so that i learn to appreciate you better later. my parents gave me good practice. i am still practicing.

to my future other half,

you may be near to me, still, pray for me.

to my future other half,

you will reach that point one day when you need someone to keep you company and when that day comes, do seek me.

to my future other half,

you may read this someday, i hope you know that i always picture you as a great lifetime partner, a great father and protector. i have trust in god.

to my future other half, 

i will try to be better even if my journey is slow. i am so sorry if i am nothing near your expectation.

i am trying, believe me.

to mu future other half, 

i miss you and i cant wait for the day till i can finally say this to you. i love you.

sincerely,

the one who is struggling to find herself while completing other people's expectations.