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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------- Im in the car heading back to Shah Alam from Langkawi.  It was fun and exhilirating, I'll be posting about it soon.  I love this feeling. In car, listening to my favourite tracks from my favourite bands, full blast volume. Heading back to a city which was once happened to be a city I despised. How time flies and so many miracles happened. I can not say more to picturize my gratitude. With all the lovely people around me, I was born to be blessed.  So much things changed as so much to learn. Well at least this year, I learnt quite a few lessons that will insyaAllah be bore till He knows when. Sometimes, growing up is the best gift ever. The time when He tested you and you grow from that. Bit by bit, each day. That's when you grow up. It's either you grow wiser or dumber.  And that solitary moment when it's j...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------------------- Sometimes it's hard to decipher the changes in life as life will (whether you like or not) moves forward and blatantly you will have to leave pieces of yr past behind, keep your guard and moves forward as well. I found it hard to comprehend such ambience. Perhaps because I was bound to be emotionally attached with something. Well, rather profoundly. It's a definite obvious matter that i can just moves forward, but the agony to be detached is one I rarely capable of handling.  Somehow I just have to be heartless. Oh, it's the time of the month. Hence the emotional post.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- Final examination is within few days. Aku rasa tak percaya weh. Dh nk habis sem 1 dh. Makin tua dh diri hamba. Well, growing up isn't as suck as I thought it'd be. Tapi tu la, dugaan and tekanan tu dtg bila dia nak kan? Suka hati dia je. Sebagai hamba, mmg kau kena get ready ah. Aku ni pun tak tahu ah apa rupa masa dpn aku. Ckp psl work hard mmg mudah la dkt bibir, lu cuba la amek tmpt hamba ni. Sesak dada jugak la.. Eh aku rasa mcm lama seh tak merepek dkt blog sendiri. Buat masa ni blog tgh private, so senang hati aku nk merapu sbb tk public semua org blh baca. Semak gak ah sbnrnya sbb privacy aku mcm diancam. Ceh, ayat..  Aku tk tahu ah mcm mana nk final exam ni. Rasa mcm what the heck have i prepared? None. Aku pun tk tahu ah. Kepala serabut. Poyo bajet amek medic je padahal matrikulasi je pun hahaha. Nmpk tk gelabah aku dkt situ? ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------- My dear lunch for today. Well, I had a bad day. Yeah, cried and sobbed like a lil kiddo. Final exam is around the corner and I get so overwhelmed with the thought of not achieving my aim. Quite stressed now. Meh, gonna be okay later. I'm tired of being all sluggish and gloom. Wake up, Nesa..

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- It's been so tiring these days. My schedule is so packed with classes and had to struggle a bit to find ways for extra brain blooming session and drilling. Final exam is exactly a month from now -______- I feel like slapping myself in disbelief. Is this real? Just another one month and six days, I wave good bye to semester 1. Time really flies.. With all the quizzes and extra classes at night, I'm feeling the pressure. At certain point, I keep mumble to myself "sabar.. sabar.. sabar.." because you see, I am working hard everyday trying not to whine or sigh or moan like a bimbo -_____-  Next week, I'm full with night classes, quizzes and pre-final exams. OH. MY. GOD. Life is awesome when I'm busy like this actually. It's just, I have to maintain the quality of what I'm doing. In other words, don't be reckless. ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- Perhaps driving to Subway to buy lunch for your lil brothers are typical cliche norm of yours. But apparently, it's not for me :) While my parents went out for a ride with their friends to Melaka, I had to babysit my lil brothers. HAHA. Babysit is not me and my lil bros a not so lil, so yeah.. they know how to behave. Oh I feel like a kakak when I had to drive here and there, buy foods for them and some stuffs before I head back to KMS in few hours time. Alone, is the best part. Well, ARY was there, virtually accompanying me :p  I enjoy this kind of lifestyle. The one I can move on my own without being restricted to a stringent schedule, or moments of abstaining the agony of waiting for others -_____- see the selfish part of me? :p mehhhhh, I don't really harm others. Hope so :p  Within hours I'll be going back to KMS. Ah yes, I...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------- Alhamdulillah for the chance that was bestowed for me today. I got the chance to meet some of my buddies. Went to Setia City Mall. Well, I can still feel the closed bonding between us. Nothing changed. They are still the some oafs I know during my school years in SSAAS. 4 years ago, when I first entered SSAAS, I hate almost everyone. They kept scrutinize me, they didn't smile back etc. They were snobbish people. At that time, I wasn't really focusing on my study. It's like my study is not priority. My study doesn't horrified me. Plus, at that time, I was from a cluster school in JB, my brain was not yet rotten, my study was okay. Until few months later, after I have settled in, my social network got better, I mixed up with people and became the hyper-est of them all -____- I was known as Nesa the kepoh, people can not handle me. I someti...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ------------------------------- Randomness 1 : Rasa liat gila nak pergi Jamuan Raya Kuliah D2M2. Seriously. Aku ni anti sosial ke apa seh? -___- Esok boleh balik dah, tapi aku tak boleh balik for the next 3 weeks, perhaps. Die due to boredom.. Nak study sentiasa pun tk leh gak weh, mental nanti. Weekend dkt sini tkda beza mcm dkt rumah. Cuma dkt rumah lagi better, Mak Ayah boleh bawak aku tgk dunia luar :p Aku tak suka pergi outing, duit transportation tu yang 'sakit' nak bayar -____- pantang sungguh.. Randomness 2 :  Apabenda ntah masalah aku, nak paranoid lebih, asyik down. Seriously, I am hard to comprehend. Even ARY can't comprehend me -____-"  Enough la nesa.. You are His Servant, bukan hamba kpd semangat kau yg senang jatuh tu. Kalau asyik nak ikut spirit kau tu, mmg ke laut la.. Randomness 3 :  Aku rindu Mak Ayah doh -____-" sighhhh.. homesick kali ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------------- I personally feel okay and quite relieved with my result. Well, not to say that I feel stable with it, but the positivity and confidence I gained from my UPS result will, insyaAllah, keep me going for the next 6 weeks. A beloved lecturer talked to me personally via phone just now. She has been my private motivator since I first know her. What she said was perseverance matters and manage my time wisely. I am still searching for the conflicts and solutions inside myself that resulted in my 'imbalance' result.  What is this crap? Ughhh.. I feel like going back home this weekend, try to make myself calm. I can not stay calm here in KMS, I get paranoid seeing these people with their spirit hahahaha.  Deep inside I am more satisfied than ever because I managed to get A for my chemistry because I wanted to make...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ---------------------------------------- It's been 3 months for me in KMS. How time flies.. Currently waiting for Peperiksaan Semester Program Matrikulasi (PSPM) or what they called as final examination la, obviously -____-" another 6 weeks left, study week deducted because I know I'll be sleeping all day long during that week -____-" bosan.. Ujian Pertengahan Semester (UPS) result will be announced in another 2 days, they said. Intimidated much? Nah, benda dah lepas. Buruk ke fail ke result aku, terima seadanya and move forward, jangan leka lagi. I can not repeat the same mistake meh. So, as the title says it all.. Yup phone aku masuk toilet bowl semalam. It was disaster HAHAHAHAHA. Worry not, my phone is in fine condition now. I can text and make phone calls. Alhamdulillah, that I was quick. Yup, aku ambil phone guna BARE HAND dlm toilet bowl tu. BOW...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) -------------------------------------------- I've been doing a lot of deep thinking session with myself that it finally leads me to an immense depression HAHAHA kids, don't be like me. Don't think too much, you'll ended up having wrinkles and pimples :p Final examination is within 7 weeks. I'll be sitting for it starting on October 29. Heyy, aku taknak ckp psl exam dkt sini, rosak suasana riang ria hari raya HAHA. Apa yang aku nak cakap is, aku tak tahu sapa yg setia baca blog aku yg tak seberapa ni. Aku tahu la tak semua dlm blog ni bagi manfaat dkt kau as reader. Aku tak expect pun org baca blog ni, tak berharap pun. But you know, to have readers is a bliss. Aku bersyukur. But.. I think for the next few weeks or months or PERHAPS years, I'd rather set this blog as private blog. Private di sini bermaksud, aku dan certain people je boleh baca. Why? ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------- June 23 . I went back home and celebrated my birthday with my family. It was pure bliss. You know, when you are 'far' apart from your family, even a second with them meant the whole world to you. I believe that is blessing from Allah. June 24. I had to go back to KMS for my duties there aren't done yet. Deep inside me, I was feeling numb. Each time Ayah drove back to KMS, I felt disheartened. I arrived safely at KMS and Ayah parked his car in front of my hostel block. It was a moment of definite reluctance -_____- I wanna go home. Time was envied and my parents had to go back to Shah Alam. I waved them goodbye and went upstairs to my room. Sad and blur. Roommates asked about how I celebrated my birthday. Yeah, it was awesome until I reach KMS's gate -____-" So I kept myself occupied with stuffs to be neatly arranged ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ...as long as you want me to, ARY :') ------------------------------- Pardon me for being all mushy for the past few days :p it's my blog anyway :)

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) 30 JULY 2012 :') Assalamualaikum Syg... :) Ingat text atas ni? Hari yg saya tunggu, after 7 months akhirnya awak serahkan hati fragile tu pada saya. :') hahahahahaha ingat x malam tu saya dah kaw2 punya mamai suddenly awak bagitau ni and saya segar terus and kita terus sambung dating sampai ke subuh? HAHAHAHAHAHA... Thank you Syg for being an amazinggggggggggggggggggggggggg gf :') awak jaga hati saya, buat saya relax bila awak sentiasa ada, jadi my personal doctor, my best friend, budak manja yg hyper, my no 1 pembuli, MY CHEF hahahahaha tak sabar nak makan lagi cupcakes sedap tu, sedappppppppppppppppppp gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :'), thanks selalu temankan saya dgr masalah saya dgr saya bebel layan saya grumpy... thank you thank you thank you my precious girl :') Ingat lagi ni? Masa ni nak pujuk awak reply e-mail saya. zaman belum ada phone no awak heh...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ------------------------------------- Aku tahu aku lambat update, sorry ya Aliah :) Cuti dh habis dah and as I type this some of us are heading to tmpt belajar masing 2 . Omg, stress HAHA. Sorry ah, tapi hati aku berat nak balik KMS -___-  I don't care about your perceptions, but I am not excited to pack my things and left my place.  So yeah, that topic bores me. Mari lah kita lihat gambar manusia 2 kesayangan hamba. We went for iftar at Nando's with our favourite maths and physics teacher, Cikgu Nurul Huda! :D Oh God, I miss them already :'( Scroll down, enjoy the captions :p Cikgu and Husband :) Bincang hal negara sambil mkn chickennnnn! Everybody loves THAT chicken, nyummmm ^__^ Aku tak kenal yg ada double chin tudung hitam tu, sorry tak kenal -____-" Oh this is love. Me, Lover 12 (Eqa), Lover 3 (Aliah), Lenglui (Farrah). Semu...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ----------------------------------------------- During my kindergarten years, I was sent to islamic kindergartens where I was taught about the fundamental ideas of my beloved deen (religion). I was taught about islamic pillars, how to pray, recite the prayer and how to have good manners etc etc. Also, I was taught that Allah and Rasullullah is the number one I should love. Being me, (perhaps the same goes to you guys), I question almost everything that happens in my life. For example, if one create a statement, kindly leave explaination(s) or I'll bombard you with my stupid curiosity (questions) HAHA. When the ustazah said that we should love and believe in Allah and Rasulullah, I question that. I question for whom or to what kind of extent we shall live. I question what is the function of living. Forgive me, I was only a little innocent girl.  I was asking 'Why?' out of cu...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) ----------------------------------------------- Not mine. Aku tak bela kucing. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) Alhamdulillah, my half-semester break has already started since I'm done with my mid semester test (UPS) yesterday. How was the test? Alhamdulillah :) To tell you the truth, I miss KMS at the moment Ayah drove out from that place. It has nothing, but such struggle and ambiance shall not be disregarded. Hope everyone will be enjoying the next few days of this break :) I'll be updating more during this break as I ignored the temptation to yap here for more than a month. What a struggle, indeed! -____- btw, ASSALAMMUALAIKUM, DEAR AVID READERS OF BOLD AND SEPET! :) ------------------------------------- No, this cute creature of God isn't mine -___- I just wish for it, one day..

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) --------------------------------------------------------- Aku belikan hadiah utk diri sendiri sempena hari jadi ke - 18 hehe. Ya, sila scroll. Semangat nak tgk hadiah utk diri sendiri HEHE Finally! :D Aku dah boleh cross out dh one of DINGY LIFE-TIME AIMS aku.  Walaupun bukan warna merah, it's okay, alhamdulillah :D I'm waiting for this weekend! Too much workloads here, everything mcm so sudden. Dulu zaman sekolah aku bukan main relax. Hamek kauuu! Masuk KMS.. padan muka -_____-" merungut pun masalah tak selesai, buat tambah dosa je. Be grateful, nesa :) Hope that everything will be getting better and better! Assalammualaikum, everyone! :D

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Peace be upon Prophet Muhammad, his companions and family :) Me fact : I love the feeling I get when I'm in the car heading home from KMS HAHA :p ---------------------------------------------- SO BORING. I know that I've been blogging about my life here in Selangor Matriculation College. You can spew if you want :p Leave this blog, it's your choice. I, honestly don't really have any topic to talk about. I mean like, tak kan aku nak specifically update every details right? It's a month two days for me today. It's so hectic. I can truly honestly seriously say that this is one of the life-changing phase in life. Well, suffering the agony of getting out from my comfort zone, striving to get up before azan subuh everyday, finishing tutorials and presentations, do some drilling and at the same time trying to enjoy everything as someone so dear to me once said. Sacrifice. That's the word worth suffering for. Well, I hope so, i...