BOLD & SEPET

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  So, recently Ayah bought 50mm f1.8 Canon lens which happened to be on top of the my dream lens (other than the expensive 35mm -_-). I was clearly too happy to test the lens, so timing pun cantik dgn FLORIA ni, aku pun test lah sikit. Aku rasa best view guna PC/Laptop kot supaya gambaq tak distorted. Pastu semua gambaq ni aku malas nak edit haha, lantak lah ltk watermark je. Anwyay, FLORIA ni dekat Putrajaya eventnya. Boleh tahan best lah. Cuci mata tenang kan hati. Entrance RM7.50, Magical Garden (yg tak best langsung) RM10.50. ( All pictures taken using Canon 700d and 50mm f18 lens ) Aku ada anak kucing baru! Hehehe Asar prayer at Masjid Besi there's always a calming vibe in rumah Allah, isnt it? I really enjoy being there at Masjid Besi. The open-air concept is really cool! At the entrance Mak Ayah oh yes, aku tgh fasa gemok skrg sbb habis SAP haritu makan mcm bela saka, tp training dah takda, so ada sed...

This year I had to live by this quote. Haritu member aku kata camni dkt aku, "kau ni bukan boleh percaya, ada masalah duk diam je simpan sorang" statement dia buat aku fikir... "aku ada masalah ke?" hahahahaha jadi bongok tiba-tiba. Ada. Aku manusia biasa. Aku ada masalah dlm hidup, tapi kebanyakan nya benda aku tak boleh solve dah. Benda yang sampai satu tahap aku terpaksa be like pegi mampos apa nak jadi, pegi mampos. Byk benda-benda yang buat aku sedih, some of them benda yg sama since years ago, maybe months ago. Benda yg diluar kawalan aku. Ubat yg aku ada cuma nangis dan doa.  Ada masa yg aku rasa tak adil semua tu jadi dkt aku, aku tk peduli Tuhan tu dengar ke tidak, aku nak nangis sampai penat tertidur dan bangun esok lupa asbab aku menangis malam tersebut. Semua sebab sebuah harapan tu penat. Husnuzon tu penat. Positive tu penat. Memang ada masa aku rasa semua yg baik tu penat, aku rasa nak men-syaiton sek...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Last October, Yasmin, Nas and I went to Yuna Live in KL at Plenary Hall, KLCC. Today, I listened to All I Do for the first time from her album (nak dengar dkt Melaka tak leh, internet slow nak mamps). The first time she sang the song was during that concert. It was such a memory. Good memory. All I Do is soooo beautiful to me, personally. Aku confused nak beli ke tidak CHAPTERS ni sebab dekat Spotify semua boleh dengar je lagu dia. Eh entah lah. Apabenda tah mood aku tetiba nak beli. Ni mesti sebab All I Do masa dkt concert tu.  Fuhh, decision...decision.. ----------------- Thank you for reading! Have a nice day! ♥

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Jengggjengggjenggg!!  Harini Mak Ayah datang Melaka amek aku. Seronok betul dapat jumpa dorang. Ayah's first remark was "gemok". Hahahaha. Takpa, boleh kurus. Anyway, cuti dah mula. Seminggu beb! Lapang hati aku. Melihat drpd keadaan bilik yg di tinggalkan selama sebulan ni, banyak kerja aku on weekend. Adik lelaki semua "paling" membantu lah bab housekeeping ni kan. Paling sekali. Nanti aku ada anak, semua aku sama rata kan. Semua kena masak, basuh baju, mop lantai, cuci toilet, tukar tayar. Semua rasa, semua sama pandai. Biar tak tebal muka aku bila nak jumpa besan nanti. Eh tetiba macam terlepas geram kejap. Okay, bertunang. Siapa yang bertunang ni? Hehehehe. Cuba teka...... Tadaaaaaaaaa!!! NOT ME   HAHAHAHAHA. True though. Mak bagitahu aku, yg Muti'ah my cousin nak bertunang harini. She's 22 too. Crazy eh this people. So brave. Aku masih mindfuck lagi dgn org yang kahwin umur bawah 25 ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Tudiaaaaaaaaaa! Aku rasa-rasa lah, mesti ada antara korang yang duk ulang alik bukak blog ni tapi harom takdak update langsung. Aku rasa je, jangan lah kecam.  Hahahaha. Tapi kalau betul lah ada, OMG you guys must've loved me too much kan??? Hahahaha. Terima kasih buat korang yg sering kali bukak blog ni. Aku ni bukan takdak benda nak di-blog kan. Ada tu ada, masa pun ada, tapi kerajinan dan mood. Mood ni penting utk aku. Dia mcm jiwa lah. Aku tak reti nak buat benda tu kalau jiwa tak datang lagi. Aku tak rasa happy. Gittewwww.  Assume lah aku dah start cuti seminggu sempena Hari Gawai. UiTM ni kan pemurah cuti, lepastu tak suka bagi cuti semester awal dekat kami semua. Heh! Semester ni aku paling jarang balik.  Sekarang ni kan dah week 12. Final exam mula week 15. Kau nampak lah dia punya gila tu macam mana kan? Ada less than a month lagi. Aku masih lost byk subjects lagi. Nota tak siap lagi oi. Past year tak sentuh lagi...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Malam kelmarin aku tidur dalam nangis, ala senang cite tertidur masa nangis hahaha. Aku terasa bersalah dengan sesuatu that I keep on chanting "im sorry" while listening to Photograph. But I had a good deep sleep. Woke up at 2pm weh. Gila tak good en. Aku pun tak tahu perlu ke aku lalui semua ni lagi sekali. Berbaloi ke aku multitask ni sebab secara jujurnya multitask mcm ni sucks teruk. Aku tak pandai lagi nak kemudi diri dan hati. Aku kurang sabar dan tak pandai mengawal rindu yang akhirnya jadi sakit memakan diri sendiri. Ini bukan kali pertama, ini dah berkali-kali. Aku pun dah naik penat, malas nak cuba. Tapi kali ni mcm perlu ke-serius-an sikit sebab aku pun bukan makin muda, main-main sangat pun tak boleh dlm benda ni. Zaman test and try dah tamat, tapi tu lah, risau kalau di akhirnya nanti semua ni sia-sia, terputus di tengah jalan. Sendu. Blerghhh. Bodoh benda ni, sekarang jugak dia nak test aku. Life is about to be nerve-wre...

Semalam aku tak boleh tidur. Lepas subuh td baru aku dpt lelap. Barai. Dah la semalam futsal smpai pkl 12am lebih. Penat gila. Harini mcm zombie aku pegi kelas and latihan netball.  Skrg ni hidup aku tgh tunggang langgang. Tidur tah ke mana, assignments tenggelam timbul. Rehat tak cukup. Aduhai.  Cepat lah habis SAP (Sukan Antara Program), aku penat jugak sbnrnya asyik training. Nmpk sgt badan dh tua, penat.  Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar. Aaminn. 

Mengandungi sedikit spoilers ye. Jgn ckp aku tk warn. Rindu korang! Smlm aku pergi tgk AADC 2 sorang. Rasa nya mcm first time aku gi tgk movie sorang. Alhamdulillah tercapai hajat aku. Ntah kenapa aku rasa mcm nak menjiwai cerita ni sendirian. Biar rasa. Anyway, - Rangga dgn Karmen punya OOTD mmg aku adore lah. Smart. - Cinta masih cantik mcm dulu, cuma peha dah besar hahahaha - Milly sangat kelakar - Cinematografi dia mmg baik ah, aku rasa dia shoot guna DSLR. AADC2 buat aku rasa nak pergi New York just for the sake of good pictures and footage. Haih. Lagi2 scene Rangga dkt Brooklyn Bridge tu (i think so, hentam je ni). Sunset tu nice gila tone dia. Aduh geram aku. Kalau ada kesayangan hati ni, aku heret jd model, biar jd Rangga sekejap hahahaha. - quotes and poems dlm AADC2 tk pernah menghampakan - aku pelik kenapa dorg cut scene dorang bercium - aku rasa aku patut beli large size popcorn lain kali sbb damn it, I love caramel popcorns - aku suka scene Rangga n Cinta berlari dalam hut...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Kalau nak cite pasal busy week masa zaman belajar ni, cliche sangat. Manada zaman belajar tak busy. On consecutive days mesti ada je agenda. Dari test, ke event, ke practice and all. Sampai bilik, kau dah layu mcm sotong. Minggu ni paling best sebab aku ada Food Innovation. Group aku buat Popia De Patatas, sejenis popia fillings dia telur, minced beef, kentang and capcicum. Daebek beb. Semua orang puji. Lecturers pun. Aku bangga dgn group aku! Anyway, dalam keadaan hidup baru naik cuti midsem ni, yg busy semacam ni, aku jd terkenang Mak Ayah dekat rumah. Sebenarnya bila belajar dkt dgn rumah, selalu balik, feeling sayu teringat Mak Ayah tu kurang sikit. Kadang-kadang feeling sayu tu bagi aku reason lebih sikit ah utk have fun dekat sini, enjoy every peluang aku ada. Aku tak tahu nak expect apa sem ni. Skrg dh mcm ke laut dh. Aku kena ke darat balik ni. Kalau tak, karam beb. Karam. Aku tahu aku jarang blogging these days. Ada je benda nk blog...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Dear you, the next one whom I will be in love with. The last one, if Allah is willing. Yes, this post is for you. I am sorry you are not the first one. I always wish I would grow wiser and more patient to make you the first one. I am sorry, I dont have enough power to make the time moves backward. But I know that I would love you better than anyone I had before because of all the pains, mistrusts and infidelity that I went through. I am sorry, I love you. You will be my last, if Allah is willing.   I am sorry that for now, I might not say it to your face that I like you because I learnt that keeping the feelings to myself and Allah feels a lot calmer than if you ever knew that I like you. I am sorry, you might not know now, but one day you will, if Allah is willing to let you know. Because after all, what I feel for you came from Allah, it's me myself who had to handle it wisely.  It cant be tainted, that's why you sha...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم  Sabtu lepas adalah pengalaman pertama aku seumur hidup (!!!!) menyaksikan kawan rapat aku sendiri menikah. Najiha namanya. Lebih dikenali sebagai Jibab atau Jiha. Jiha ni classmate aku masa dkt matriks. Sekelas tu ada 7 orang je girls. Banyak kenangan ktorang 2 tahun dekat KMS tu. Sekarang semua dah bawa haluan berbeza, tapi masih lagi lepak setiap kali cuti panjang dan mmg tak lengkap cuti tanpa dorang. For as long as everything is still the same like this, Im so grateful alhamdullilah. Aku terdiam jugak bila dah sampai Masjid Damansara Damai tu, tgk Jiha siap dgn baju nikah dia. Aku rasa dia main-main waktu dia bgthu ktorg tu. Senyap je dia, tetiba menikah dah. Sweet :') Sebak kah aku? Aku lebih kepada mindfuck hahahaha biar betul siak Jiha ni nak menikah dah in a few minutes time. That was what in my mind, the whole time. Tak sempat nak sebak, majlis berjalan dgn sangat lancar. Tok kadi memudahkan majlis. Tak byk bebel. Serious semua lan...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم   You know you reach one point in life whereby you just have to wake up and tell yourself that it's time to move forward and leave shitty things or people behind. That day will come if it hasn't yet. Then comes the day you will regret all the people you misinterpret and Allah tells you straight to your face that you are to blame, for your ego and selfishness. Yes, this day too will come if it hasnt. Then comes the day when someone came with a huge mistake and all you have to do is to figure out how to get away from that bastard, but you know deep inside you need to forgive anyway. The pain bleeds you. Or maybe just a random day when you realized that it's time that you give some space for someone to enter your life but then you have become too rigid due to all the pains that bleed you. But you try to convince yourself that it is fine and conflicts are fine also, it let you struggle a lil bit but you continue to grow. Maybe just a day...

I had a rough ending last month. - my mirror crashed to the ground, leaving the wood frame scattered, luckily the mirror is fine. - i only had rm2 cash in hand, rm21 in bank, a telur pindang and leftovers serunding daging, so i decided to puasa ganti to curb the mentality that I need to eat but i dont have money  - someone subtly rejected me - debts everywhere  - too sensitive with everyone's comments towards me - my laptop is doomed, didn't function well, fml - i went for theatre audition which i dont feel belonged anymore but then i realized that i keep shutting out everything, fml again - whatsapp still not functioning. Blerghh i wish TaiG would release the latest jailbreak asap, fml. Life is hard without whatsapp. I might need to buy new battery for my S2 bcz it's the only hope for whatsapp but it failed me also by constantly staring back at me with blank screen. Fml. I cried during shower once and I know it's critical that I overthink at th...

Alhamdulillah for this trip. ps : all pictures taken using Canon 700d (18-55mm kit lens), except yang aku *** kan, ------------------- Total damage : somewhere around RM 350. - RM60 for 2 nights at 56 Red Inn Hotel, Lorong Love, Georgetown, Pulau Pinang. - RM 98 return flight + Skybus ticket (from KL Sentral to KLIA2) - selebihnya duit makan, tambang bas etc. Travel mates : - Zery and Aqilah were my matriks junior, while Aida is Aqilah's elder sister. Special appearance (gittewww) : - Yasmin Azila, my matriks buddy who is currently furthering her bachelor study in USM. I salute this squad because this was really a random suggestion and we made it happened! It all started masa cuti semester February haritu. Bought the flight ticket terus to make sure nobody stalling the plan hahaha. (Im not gonna let that happen! -.-) Thank you girls for your availability. Alhamdulillah sebab masa tu (as far as I know) none of us were having money constraint, ...