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Hi blog. Kat Singapore ni aku kerja management trainee subway. Ye subway sandwich tu. Yg serve customer mcm kat Msia. Sama je. Tapi gaji lain lah. Takde lah besar gila² gaji tu, tp terlalu better than my last salary in Msia. Hence here I am in SG. Aku tak opt utk duduk dlm SG sbb terlaluuuuu mahal. Bilik sewa takda yg below sgd500 (rm1600+). Yes, BILIK. Bukan rumah.  Aku tulis diary ni sbb aku mmg suka tulis benda mcm ni since aku sekolah rendah. Im a diary/journal type of person. It’s like a therapy for me to do once in awhile. Later dah tua boleh lah tgk balik dan rasa mcm apabenda la bongok aku ni  🤣 Week 1. 7-13nov 2022. Isnin. Azizi hantar aku gi kerja today. Yesza, smpi SG dia teman aku. Ktorg naik public for first day. Hari pertama keluar rmh pkl 5.45am siot. Awal gila kan? Tp mmg kena awal sbb tak tahu mcm mana crowd pagi dkt both SG and MY border pada hari isnin. Terkejut jugak aku line tggu bus dkt MY panjang gila but surprising tggu bus tak lama sgt pun. Less than 30mins la

One thing I learnt: Susah nak yakinkan diri yang rezeki pasti ada di mana² terutama bila macam tak nampak jalan langsung, bila susah hati. Tapi… bila kita dah senang, happy, lapang otak, terus lupa rasa sesak dada masa jalan gelap. This calls for astaghfirullah 😅

Lately ni aku terfikir dan tersedar yg aku mmg takda daya usaha dan influence utk pergi haji, until aku ternampak sorang lady ni kt Instagram. Dia muda sama around my age perhaps. Tp dia pergi haji dah. Mmg power. Dari segi duit. Masa. Dan paling utama, hidayah utk pergi. Ada org berduit tp tkda effort yg sungguh utk jd tetamu Allah. Aku jumpa video tiktok ni ( https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSR1dswGW/?k=1 ), this guy jual rumah utk pergi haji. Hebat. Baru betul hidup kt dunia utk lengkapkan akhirat dan tugas sebagai hamba Allah. Bekerja sungguh² utk ada capacity pergi beribadah. Bukan sekadar cukupkan keperluan hidup, berbelanja mewah, bercuti. Tapi beribadah. Mahal sbnrnya harga hidayah yg macam ni. Allah tak jentik hati sesuka hati. Only the chosen one. Clearly aku jauh tersasar. Takda daya usaha dan maju utk bekerja cari rezeki utk senang beribadah. Selesa dgn kehidupan skrg ketika masih sihat.  Semoga Allah permudah urusan² ku lepasni. Semoga ada daya usaha dan maju utk kejar akhirat dan i

I turned 28 today. Alhamdulillah. Tahun² akan datang mungkin belum pasti, Tapi yang berlalu semuanya syukur pada Allah. Macam Pitbull cakap “Every day above ground is a great day. Remember that!” Now where is my slice of birthday cake? 🍰

Hi blog. Aku kan dah lama unemployed kan, dh nak masuk 1 tahun 9 bulan dah. Tapi aku masih lg apply jobs sana sini mana yg menarik di hati aku lah. So, cerita nya 2 weeks ago Azizi ada nampak vacancy HR dkt Segamat ni. Peh mmg on point. Segamat and HR. Memang ngam. Kerja kt kedai emas. Aku mcm 50/50 sebab dah seronok duduk rumah wakakaka. Tapi aku apply lah jugak.  Sekali tu dia panggil aku interview siak... Azizi gelak kat aku hahaha sebab nya aku mcm main² je apply. Ye la selama ni aku apply sepi je takda respond so aku tkda la pasang harapan. Sekali boleh sangkut pulak. gELabaHHHhhhhhhhhHhh~ Fikir punya fikir, lastly aku turned down the offer.  Idk if I want to kerja office again. Honestly aku tk pernah rasa happy pun dgn semua kerja aku sebelum ni kecuali my latest work as a lecturer tu. Sebabnya jadi lecturer ni aku bebas nak buat kerja mcm mana, soalan exam nk susah tahap mana, assignments suka hati aku nak bagi byk mana. Most of the time aku dgn students, menghiburkan hati. Boss

Today was a happy day for me sebab I was scammed by Azizi to go "jungle trekking" at a "flat route", but turns out it's a 30min hike at a small bukit named Bukit Cinta (yes, literally that's the name). What a cheesy man....brought me to Bukit Cinta hahaha! If you know me well, you know I ABSOLUTELY HATE hiking. Like H.A.T.E.  But yeah it was a very quick hike, but still shoot up my heart rate to 150 hahahahaha! Tapi Azizi kat sebelah rilek je HR dia 100 -__- I cant relate to people like him. I was dying, you know. Sweats dripping, legs shaking, mouth mumbling kinda dying.... The last time I hiked was with my parents kot. Dekat some bukit in Ampang, apabenda entah nama.  Also, Broga with my parents and one time dekat sekolah I hiked Gunung Angsi. Wow.... that shit was a traumatic event of my life hahahaha! It was Gunung Angsi that made me hate anything related to hiking. I swear I still remember how damn tiring it was. Ah anyway, back to the story of today...

 Hello. Aku dah dapat 1st dose 30 june haritu dekat IDCC Shah Alam. Merasa lah balik Shah Alam walaupun satu malam je. Rasa bebas kejap dpt tgk dunia lain wakaka. 2nd dose insyaAllah 21 july ni, 11 am. Probably ktorg gerak pagi lepas subuh from Segamat.  Lepas 1st dose haritu alhamdulillah sangat² aku takda melalui any side effects. Tapi tak tahu lah lepas 2nd dose ni mcm mana kan. Aku dgn Azizi dpt tarikh and waktu sama. Mak Ayah hari sama tp waktu lain and luar Shah Alam. 2 adik aku dpt IDCC. Sorang adik aku dpt SCCC. Aku pun tk fhm apesal mak ayah aku tk dpt Shah Alam. Rezeki aku dgn Azizi dpt kat Shah Alam. Mungkin Tuhan tahu ktorg ni dah tepu duduk segamat haha. Even he himself pun pishanggggg asyik cakap "nanti balik Shah Alam, nak pegi (insert every mall and our fav makan place)". Aku syak dia gian nak berkampung dkt Decathlon, lari dkt Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, lunch dkt our fav gerai kt Wangsa Maju. Goshhhh, we miss KL so much. (read: aku yg rindu life Shah Alam - KL h

Tiba² je dah umur 27 tahun eh. Rasa mcm still umur 20 baru nak masuk degree wakaka. Yang aku harap aku capai tahun ni adalah: - I start making money on my own,  - learn another language more seriously, - learn vlookup, - be more grateful,  - be more active,  - lose 10kg of body fat HAHAHAHA Im 63kg and height 160cm now. The fattest and heaviest I've ever been in my entire life. Maybe tu je lah yg aku nak capai tahun ni. Walaupun small progress, I hope I'll be proud of myself akhir tahun ni kalau nyawa masih dipinjamkan lagi insyaAllah. Not sure if Im gonna start doing the first thing in the list or not ah this year. I had the plan and resources since last year, tp ya ampun pemalas ya hahaha! Papehal pun, happy birthday in advance my dearself. Alhamdulillah for every day. 1994, June 23. ------------- My other social medias: Instagram : Click Me! Youtube : My Vlogs!

WARNING: LONGGGGG POST. Hi. Lama betul aku tak update blog eh. Makin tua makin tak terluah apa yg ada dlm hati. Dulu time sekolah fuhhh rajin blogging. Anyway, this post will be as the title says. 21.1.2021; First Anniversary with my handsome man :) Hari ni genap setahun aku jadi Puan Anisah, RASA MCM CEPAT GILA MASA BERLALU, RASA TAK PERCAYA AKU DAH KAHWIN SIAKKK HAHAHAHA NESA DH BESAR DOH, DAH 27 TAHUN THIS YEAR! Anyway, terus kan hidup dengan roommate baru, tempat baru, Segamat Johor.  A completely new phase. Jauh dr family and friends kat Shah Alam. Dah nak dekat setahun aku kat bandar kecil ni. A simple life I would say. Cuma bukan rezeki kitaorang sebab tak dapat nak travel for honeymoon due to Covid-19, a pandemic that sucks life outta everyone.  Bulan pertama kahwin, mac 2020, pengalaman pertama jugak utk aku sebab lockdown PKP 1.0 kat rumah mertua dari Mac sampai August 2020. Suka hati aku je bantai tidur lewat, bangun tengah hari kt rmh mil hahahaha! Azizi pun jenis tidur and

Wow, it's 2020. Last time aku update blog ni, aku baru lepas resign from my job as a lecturer. Crazy! Who would've thought that I, ANISAH, WOULD BE A LECTURER?! Aku selalu rasa orang bijak pandai, berdisiplin dan rajin je boleh jd tenaga pengajar ni. Tapi that's how Allah plan. He knows your potential and He put you there anyway. January 2020, kebanyakan masa aku spend dekat rumah sebab aku jobless masa tu. Bersyukur jugak sebab aku ada masa and ruang utk siap kan preparation bulan February!!! Nervous!! February 2020, Siapa sangka February 2020, aku kahwin (Wowwww!) dengan jejaka handsome yang aku sangat lah love and adore. I have not said this in public before we got married. I kept our relationship extremely private and the best part is, he supports that in a way that dia (alhamdulillah) takda cheating. Wakakaka! He was never mad or act like a mad monkey bila aku decide utk keep this relationship super private. Nama dia Azizi, proud to say, he is my husband :)

I think for the longest time ever aku single sebelum aku kenal dia. It was, super honestlyyyyy, the best decision ever; to stay single before I settle down. Sebab masa tu aku mencari diri sendiri and happiness sendiri. I was just wandering everywhere, not minding at all to find a guy to be in love with, or I never bother to have a crush on someone pada tahap yg kronik; sedih bila cinta tak terbalas, sedih kalau kena palau etc. Masa single tu aku rasa everyone was just playing around, so I did the same, I never got attach to anyone. I never want to. I wanted to be free from those feelings. I just wanna be with my family and friends, live the best of my life without commitment and I swear Im still proud of myself until today for doing that. Why? sebab tahun-tahun yg aku spend as a single person, aku belajar utk memahami dan menjiwai bahawa jodoh tu ada timing nya sendiri. aku belajar utk percaya pada percaturan Allah sbb masa tu I was so happy dekat Melaka with my friends, padaha

Sometimes one wonders about rezeki so much that the heart wrecked in disappointment. Im wondering about rezeki too. Sometimes I doubt the rezeki is there, meant for me. I guess it's just syaitan telling me to have all these doubts. Perhaps 2020 will be a beautiful year, but how do I convince myself that things will get better? -------------------- My other social medias: Instagram : Click Me! Twitter : My Tweets! Youtube : My Vlogs!

At this point i feel like a loser hahaha because Im going to resign again. Sebab nya, management made me do unethical thing. Hanya kerana nak kan graph yg cantik, aku kena adjust grading students. Bukan aku sengaja buat alasan nak resign tapi aku cuba utk buat kerja dgn etika. Ye mmg ada je masa aku mengular tapi this unethical thing melibatkan masa depan anak orang, so i dont want to tolerate this thing. I feel like a lost of integrity bila kena buat benda tu. Boss besar kata management taknak release results budak kalau graph tk cantik. Like wtf????? Aku dengar kata boss sampai kan assessment budak aku bagi 100 hahahahaha kau rasa logic ke???? Students get what they deserve lah. Sakai betul. Im leaving. Thats my final say. ---------------------------- My other social medias: Instagram : Click Me! Twitter : My Tweets! Youtube : My Vlogs!

So, as of this year aku dah resign 2 kerja: - HR trainee - conference exec currently, alhamdulillah, i can say im happy with my job as a lecturer at a private college in Gombak. im trying not to name the college because too much details will bite me, maybe. lol. anyway, banyak rupanya kerja sebagai lecturer ni. banyak sungguh kerja filing ye. aku rasa mengajar takda la byk mana. tu je la aku geram kerja ni. byk benar files nak kena buat oi. bila audit, mcm2 lah nk kena settle. but hey, thats the nature of work. semua kerja pun stress. kau kerja sendiri pun stress. jd surirumah pun stress. semua pun stress lah. tapi as for now, aku diberitahu college ni akan pindah ke cyberjaya dan mungkin hanya 40% pensyarah yg akan pindah, lg 60% akan di terminate. so skrg aku 50-50 lah. risau jugak. but Allah knows better. minggu ni aku apply utk jd lecturer kt uitm johor. tak tahu lah ada rezeki nya atau tak. semoga Allah tunjuk jalan rezeki aku. ------------------------ My other s

So, aku resign kerja aku as trainee tu (refer previous post) wakakaka! sebab aku perlu kan payslip yg ada EPF sekarang ni. and now Im updating this during lunch time at my new company. Well, 1st day so nothing impressive so far. Im planning to stay with this company until this contract ends and will find a new job if this contract is not renewed. Anyway, the only perk i like about this new company is that this company is just 10mins away from my place which is SUPER AWESOME!! Although kerja yg aku buat ni bukan HR, kinda sad but for now, ini lah rezeki yg Allah dah susun, so Im soooooo grateful that finally aku dapat kerja dkt dengan rumah. Tak pernah lg aku dpt kerja dlm Shah Alam. Selalunya semua jauh2, KL/Gombak/Damansara. Semoga aku tabah kat sini sampai contract habis. InsyaAllah. -------------- My other social medias: Instagram : Click Me! Twitter : My Tweets! Youtube : My Vlogs!

well, minggu pertama berlalu dgn sederhana laju. so far aku takde lah rasa enjoy gila kerja situ. tapi what can i say now is this company is wayyyyy better than my previous companies in terms of facilities and procedures. takde lah perfect, tapi better lah than before. kawan2 semua (masih) okay wakakaka. dorang pun ada gak mengadu psl kerja kt situ. masih terlalu awal utk aku terima semuanya. mungkin one day nanti aku akan rasa sendiri betapa peritnya. mungkin sbb goal aku nk kumpul duit for future, so aku terpaksa tepis segalanya buat masa skrg ni dan terus kan sampai bulan march 2020 sbb at that time contract aku habis. unless kalau aku diabsorb ke dlm company ni, which aku dpt rasa aku mungkin 50/50 akan accept sbb dpt rasa pressure tu makin byk setiap hari. so far aku masih fight malas nk bgn pagi dan ke office. belum ada hari lg yg aku tk kira brp jam lg nak balik rumah hahahahaha. semoga semuanya baik2 shj smpai march 2020. insyaAllah! pink socks ft my own cubicle wh

yessss, i got that jobbbb! 3rd july haritu aku interview, di hujung interview tu manager terus bgthu aku boleh mula isnin ni. happy bebbbbb!! management trainee pun takpe lah. gaji kecik pun takpe lah. janji aku dh ada langkah dlm bidang HR ni. semoga lepas hbs management trainee nanti aku di absorb masuk dlm company ni dan gaji lebih lumayan sikit sbb ehemmm aku boros wakakaka. selamat bekerja wahai diri. i am eternally thankful to Allah for this rezeki. hari yg sama aku apply kerja tu kt Indeed, exec tu call aku, borak2 and minta aku dtg interview terus esoknya. aku pun tak pasti berapa lama aku boleh bertahan kt company ni. so far masih belum ada company lain yg call dan offer. whatever lah, yg ada ni pun aku dh rasa cukup dh. aku sign up for a part time job too; private tutor. tgk lah mcm mana hasilnya nanti. mungkin pitam kepenatan hahahaha. yg penting bekerja lah selagi masih sihat. insyaAllahhhh! me after the interview. happy face bcz the interview went well :

Aku dah habis viva 20 june haritu, everything went well alhamdulillah during viva. 2nd examiner tak dtg, so.....fuhhhhhh, legaaa cuma ada satu je examiner. lepastu cita-cita aku nak buat correction within 24 hours, tp sampai harini masih tak siap sebab asyik berjalan dan buat benda lain, which is apply kerja. today aku apply kerja kat company X dalam tengah hari, a few hours later company X call aku yadayada, so esok aku ada iv kat company X. ya Allah nervous sgt!!! gaji dekat company ni takda la besar mana, tak seperti yg aku harap kan. tapi for long term, this is a superrr good opportunity insyaAllah sebab ni lah peluang utk aku dpt masuk HR field. dulu lepas hbs BBA kt melaka, aku pernah lah apply kerja HR admin kt company Y; an insurance and asset management company. dapat job tu. tapi aku tolak last minute sbb tamak haloba dpt kerja kt Gombak gaji lg besor. ceh, lepastu tamak memakan diriku sebab kerja kt Gombak tu mcm tak kena jiwa. after 2 years and finishing master in

Walaupun aku stuck jd hamba sistem pendidikan skrg ni (ye la, aku masih ikut flow nya, kena grad bla bla bla) dan masih belum bekerja, ada masa aku fikir jugak apabenda la yg aku minat sebenarnya. At this age you realized that something you are passionate about has to be able to pay the bills someday. Sebab kita memang bekerja utk bayar hutang dan simpan harta duniawi hahahaha! Tp deep down, I have passion for photography and making videos. I had that passion since I was a lil kid. But as I grow up, aku sedar yg sebenar masalah adalah grit, determination, persistence, risk-taking, perseverance attitude yg takda dalam diri aku, or simple, aku malas nak develop. Mungkin jugak sbb aku too overwhelmed menjadi hamba sistem. Nanti dah kerja, alasan nya penat kerja, tkda masa nak try shoot bla bla bla. Tapi at this phase of my life, I feel slightly pushed to try. To future me, I hope in 5 years time, I can have my own photography portfolio and I'll enjoy making videos and shar

Last tuesday (june 11), aku berjaya submit thesis aku sebelum office tutup (aku pernah sampai office nk submit assigment tp dorang baru tutup office, dah punch out dah, sakit beb perasaan tu hahahaha). Phewwwwww! LEGA BEB!!!! Aku mmg submit je apa mampu. Lantak engko ler. Malas aku nak fikir dah. Apa nak jadi, jadi lah masa viva tu. Kena "goreng" dgn panelists sampai hangus pun takpa lah. 10 minit masa viva nanti aku akan tabah kan jua hatiku. Yang penting, hati ni rasa puas sangat sebab dah submit thesis. Dah 3 hari ni memang seronok betul otak aku takda fikir hal thesis. Esok Kema and Amir nikah, dorang ni kawan aku dkt Melaka dulu. Aku jd bridesmaid. Ahad baru aku akan kembali berfikir pasal viva. Sebab aku masih kena buat poster utk viva presentation nanti. Tarikh viva mungkin 20 june. Wahai Anisah di masa hadapan, kau rilek. kau boleh. kau akan baca balik post ni and realized everything Allah settle kan dah. Keep up bersangka baik pd Allah. kau akan grad on time.

Aku dah siap chapter 2,3,4!!!! Puas hati betul lah bila buat kerja on schedule ni. Nisa, cuba kau bayang kalau drpd awal semester kau dah mula buat semua ni 🤦🏻‍♀️🙄 confirm sekarang ni kau rilek tunggu nak beraya dan gemuk kan badan je wakakaka!! So esok boleh focus chapter 1, lusa chapter 5 insyAllah kalau mampu. Yang penting before raya kena settle semua write up. Kalau perlu buka laptop masa raya pun hanya utk touch up sahaja ye Nisa. Raya buat cara mcm raya, jgn nak hadap laptop sgt. Cant wait to meet 221 ( my KMS classmates ) for iftar today! --------------------- My other social medias: Instagram : Click Me! Twitter : My Tweets! Youtube : My Vlogs!

basically lepas aku jumpa advisor 23mei haritu, aku decide utk ubah framework baru, ubah soalan baru, basically new everything lah. mula from scratch. why? sbb result data aku terlalu hodoh dek kerana aku tak buat pilot study (PS) dulu. pilot study ni penting ye dlm research rupanya. sebelum kau buat full study, kau buat PS dulu utk tgk research kau ni boleh pergi ke tak boleh. reliable ke tidak questionnaire (instrument) yg kau guna. entah lah aku mmg degil dan malas. padahal PS tu collect 30 questionnaire je pun -.-" all is well alhamdulillah for my 2nd attempt. currently aku dah siap chapter 2 sahaja ye. but PS for my new study went okay! so im all set to do full study. aku masih working on chapter 4, half way to go. before raya aku cuba siap kan semuanya lengkap. mcm impossible sbb aku byk bazir masa kt chapter 4. but whatever. 10 days left to submit, 19 days left to present my dissertation. i cant wait to finish this shizzzzzz. so boringgggg!!!! --------------

Sejujurnya, aku rasa serabut gila sekarang ni. Tadi aku pergi UiTM Puncak Alam utk jumpa Dr X, my advisor. He's a helpful advisor, cuma like a very typical advisor, dia tak tanya khabar sangat kecuali advisee yang approach. Tapi dia helpful la pada aku. Cuma aku pening jugak ni, masih banyak nak kena repair and write up. 1. Conceptual framework 2. Pilot study 3. Pilot study reliability analysis 4. Instrument validity 5. Chapter 4: results & findings 6. Chapter 5: conclusion That's a lot of work to do in 19 days muahahahaha!! I dieeeeeee! Not sure if I can finish everything but I think I can if I really focus on it, takda main phone, merayau keluar, tidur, netflix -____-" those days are overrrrrrrrr. 19 days left because I need to submit everything after raya (5 June). Aku nak raya dengan tenang, at least 90% are done. I just need to see Dr X a few more times before raya to discuss with him on my write up updates, balik kampung for raya, came back