She left before I get to say goodbye.
Kami sekeluarga bela kittens kpd seekor stray cat ni. Tak letak nama pun sbb takda niat nak jadikan depa kucing kami. Cuma jaga kejap lepastu niat nak lepaskan dkt pasar or anywhere lepas depa dah betul2 sihat and besar (boleh berdikari). Ada 3 kittens. 2 Warna oren, 1 warna hitam. Oren pertama dah mati awal2, aku syak sbb dia byk cacing and sooner dia takda nutrisi. Exact reason dia mati aku tak pasti. Tapi mak tunjuk video bahawa mak kucing tu sendiri makan anak dia ni. Mungkin mak dia taknak kitten ni terseksa kot. But aku seriau tgk video tu.
Ok done oren pertama.
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Dh brp hari Hitam tu sakit, kami dah bwk pegi vet. Bg dia mkn ubat etc. Dia sihat few days. But then 2-3 hari ni dia lembik. Asyik terkulai layu je. So we kept feeding her dgn susu HL. Called vet today, vet kata kena beli susu kitten. So sebelum pegi terawih, ayah pegi pet shop, but pet shop tutup. Balik drpd terawih, aku buka telekung and duduk tepi Hitam.
Usap2 dia. Lembik sgt dia. Btw, tadi masa buka dia ada bunyi la, tapi hati aku tak sedap. Org lain tgh mkn, aku cant resist pegi dkt dia tgk dia kenapa. Sigh. So, aku decide nk bg dia susu, aku settle kan susu (tapi sejuk), then aku feed dia guna syringe slowly. Dia telan. Aku happy.
Lepastu mak suruh panaskan sikit susu tu, I did. Aku dtg balik dkt Hitam, nk bg susu dkt dia, aku push syringe tu, dia tak telan pun. Dia tak bergerak. Aku igt dia main2. Aku poke dia, usap dia etc, but tak gerak pun.
Serious aku gelabah dah masa ni. Aku syak dia dh mati.
Aku tgk mata dia, tgk dia bernafas tak, kuku dia tak cengkam aku mcm biasa... no motion at all. Dia memang kaku....
Hmmm... kenapa la time ni jgk dia nak mati? few seconds before that dia hidup lagi, but why so sudden? sigh...
Bergenang jugak lah air mata aku.
I'll meet her in jannatul firdaus one fine day, in sha Allah. Good bye, kitty. Thank you fr being my sweeheart since day 1 you existed in this house.
Love, Nisa.
PS : Oh yeah, mungkin perasaannya tak sama dgn perasaan mati kucing sendiri yg dah bertahun bela sendiri, but still, a demise is a lost. When someone lost something like this, pay some respect. I dont need comparison (regardless the reason). Her demise alone is saddening. Comparing it? Yeah I know it is different, but oh please, do you like it when people compare and it is as if your sad feeling is less significant? Respect somehow needs a meticulous and careful effort, you know.
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